Well not so much any more. Tonight I came out.
Yes, since I was on here blogging regularly last year, I finally decided to carve out some me time & went back to my favourite thing - which is singing in a choir.
Now I know choral music isn't to everyone's tastes but I honestly love it. I find it really moving and beautiful and love to be in the middle of beautiful music as it is being created. There was a time when I used to be a bit embarrassed about this in front of my friends - after all amateur classical singing is generally an old person's hobby - I might have said that I'd taken up bowls.
But now I hold my head up high and I'm proud. I've been singing in my local choir for nearly eight months now and its doing my soul a heck of a lot of good. And in tonight's concert I got to sing a small solo, which was even better. I put more make up on than usual tonight, made a fuss of my hair, wore a skirt & high shoes. I had to stand at the front & be seen and I have to say I really enjoyed it.
At the end all the little old ladies said how wonderful it was & they presented me with a box of chocs. I just lapped up all the praise and adulation - I know realistically my performance was nothing special but its nice to be made to feel good.
This is about as far from mum-of-toddler world as its possible to get. It's what I've been needing for so long....
15/03/08 @ 23:40